What must it be like for the person who knows that he only has a set   amount of time left for him?  I can see him going about his daily   activities like he always did for years and years and years, secure in   the knowledge that the next second will occur, and the next, and the   next, leading into minutes, and hours, and days... and on into an   indefinite future of aliveness.  But eventually the countdown will reach   zero, and there will be no more comfort to take in the notion of 'a   little more time'.  But still... what will he do?  Turn a screwdriver?    Wash a dish?  Pat a dog on the head?  Take a nap?  Visit a friend?    Stare at the wall?  Count stucko phantoms?  Go to sleep?  What will be   the last thing he does, ever?  How does that countdown reach the end for   him? 
What will he feel when he sees the forever still and distant terminator   on the horizon getting impossibly but inevitably closer?  Will it fade  from day into  night, or will it be an abrupt transition?  Will there be  another  terminator, this time describing a new day?  What kind of day  will it  be?  Will there be things to do in it?  Will now keep going on  and on,  or will it end? 
Will all of those things that gave his life meaning still mean anything   in this new day, if there is one?  What about that woman he loved?   What  happens to that?  Did it mean anything real; anything that will   translate into 'after the now'?  Or what about the children he never   knew?  Will he see them, when they eventually join him in the   afterness?  Will he see those he's hurt and broken and  killed?  Will  anything from the before-time of physical life survive in  that  after-time?  And if so, is there a such a thing as forgiveness  there?    
What is one man's life in the grand scheme of things?  Can one living   consciousness really be sentenced to an eternal separation from God due   to an infinitesimal mistake made during that pinprick of an instant of   eternity that we call life?  It's possible to kill with just a few   words, and without even knowing it.  How can that kind of power  fall to   just one person, and how can he not even be aware of it?  How can such   irresponsibility exist?  
How can such despair exist?  There must be an equal hope to counter   it... there has to be balance.  There has to be.  Is there no hope for   the damned? 
Whoever that guy is, I wish him the best, and all of God's Grace.  I   know he exists somewhere.
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