Have you ever been in the middle of a moment, say for instance...
And then only realized, after the fact, that the memory you'd just made is the feeling that you've been searching for, but couldn't ever find?
And that you can never ever ever make it a present moment thing, even though you remember it that way?
That thing I just said there, that I wrote up there... that's a big problem in my life. Doesn't seem like a real problem, does it? Funny though... but it is.
Ok, here it comes, finally. It's raining leaves.
Ok, here's one! This will be one of those, the memory of what's happening now, as the front pushes in.
(It's blowing cold, and hard, outside)
Wow. I kind of just want exposure to have it's way with me, here, outsized in it, because wow. I can really feel it, Without any chemical help.
(And everything's lit up under the sky, but ain't the wind cold)
It's a moment, that I only live for, like I was saying wallago.
Isn't that funny? Here's one of those impossible to remember moments.